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I’m Sarah Mac. I’m a writer, mom, runner. This is my original running blog, Running Starfish, started in 2009 to chronicle my first (and supposed to be last) marathon, all the way through qualifying for the 2016 Olympic Trials Marathon.

Pregnancy Announcement Analysis

Pregnancy Announcement Analysis

Honestly until a couple weeks ago I wasn’t sure I’d talk about my pregnancy this time. I felt very vulnerable last time after sharing. Vulnerable in the best ways but also sometimes the worst ways. That vulnerability could be like a punch to heart, but also it brought me closer to women from everywhere who ended up being an amazing support tribe during pregnancy and in PJ’s early days. Even now. 

So I sifted the pros and cons over and over. And over...

PROS

Connecting with other people, not feeling isolated
Sharing a new view of pregnancy, adding to the dialog
Processing my feelings through writing
Potential to get helpful advice
It’s hard to share anything without sharing this

CONS

Adding to the pressure to perform pregnancy
Unintentially hurting people that might be going through hard things in this area
Having to share if something goes wrong
Publically processing my unfinished story
Opening myself to critique / unwanted advice

The pros that won out were connecting and also adding my dialog to the conversation. I have anxiety and that contributes it’s own edge to pregnancy. I don’t think I’m alone there, but I also think by default when you have anxiety you can tend to lock down and isolate when you might need to open up. Maybe you have anxiety, maybe my experience will connect with you and we both won’t feel so alone. 

My Flexible Pregnancy

My Flexible Pregnancy

12 Weeks, 0 Days: Dumping the Doppler

12 Weeks, 0 Days: Dumping the Doppler